A GROOVY KIND OF LIFE

I have been feeling rather lost and directionless these past few weeks.

I am a very “groovy” person, as in, I function best when I am moving along in a greased groove. I have very high inertia, which means that once something derails me from my movement along the groove, I stop moving. And it takes major effort to get me going again.

The illness of the few weeks past was a major derailing factor. I have not managed to get into groove again since then, be it training, diet, work or personal life. I feel in limbo and cannot get the energy up to put things in place. It doesn’t help that I am having major resistance to work due to various issues that I have been whining about in my last few posts.

At the same time, I am also feeling anti-social and totally “hermity”. I don’t feel like to talking to anyone; I just want to be left alone. I am sure the anti-social feeling is tied somewhat to my feeling out of groove.

Tomorrow is the day I have planned to snap out of it all, and get back to normal. It sounds unrealistic, but having a fixed day to get into groove kind of works, most of the time. So I only have the rest of this afternoon to continue my in-limbo existence, which is not so bad actually, if I didn’t need to make a living and lose some weight.